Thanks for the prayers

I wanted to thank everyone for praying for my dad.  Your prayers for my dad helped tremendously.  I am unsure of when in the last two weeks that this happended, but I do know that within the last two weeks he stopped running from God's love.  And I can safely say that he, today, is resting in our Savior's arms.  He is free from cancer and pain and he is home.

I would ask that you continue to pray for me and my siblings, as we go through an unusally time of morning.  We did not get to know a man that loved and lived a life dedicated to God, but we will.

Isaiah 35:10


"and the ransomed of the Lord will return. They will enter Zion with singing; everlasting joy will crown their heads. Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away."

Prayer Concern

I know this blog is used for updates on our adoption, but I received some news yesterday that I feel requires lots of prayer.  I found out that my biological father's cancer has spread to his brain and he maybe gone before the end of the year.  Now, I am still processing through how I feel about this because I have never had a relationship with him or even known him much as a man.  But I do know that he has spent most, if not all of his adult life, running from God's unconditional love for him and the plans that our heavenly father has had for him.  And that makes me sad.  So, I am asking that you pray with me that he would stop running and that he and his wife would feel that love right now more then they ever have before and to be able to rest in the knowledge that God is with them.

Moving Forward

Last week I spoke to our new Social Worker from Luthern Social Services.  We have set up a meeting with her for August 22nd in the evening.  Just wanted to let you know that the process is once again moving forward.  It will be after this meeting that our profile will once again be shown.  It has been on hold since March, so this feels like a step in the right direction.
Again, Matt and I really appreciate the love, prayers and support we have received from all of you.  We hope and pray that we are on the finally stretch.
Many blessings!

It has been a long time....

I realize that it has been a really long time since Matt and I have posted, but who wants to read "still doing paperwork" for several months on end. But today it has changed, Matt took the paperwork to work to mail today. YEA! One step closer.

It took a little longer because we waited for me to get out of school and Matt to take a day off work. We had to get fingerprinted again and do some background checks again, that required some running around. Hard to do when you have to be at work. But it is done and I can sigh and wait for Suzie to call. (new social worker at new agency)

So, now we wait again.

Sunday, I turned 35 and it was hard. Not because I feel old, although the gray hair and wrinkles are getting more abundant everyday. But because I just thought I would be somewhere completely different in my life right now. I had my moments on Sunday when the tears came all too easliy, but my wonderful husband was there to help me through and I prayed alot. I know that Matt and I are travelling this road for a reason and we might not understand now or ever on this earth why, but it is only for a season and there will be an end, hopefully a very happy one.=)

So, Matt and I are reminding each other of all the good that is in our lives and all the wonderful things we have been blessed with. Like wonderful, wonderful, family and friends who have been a HUGE support. They show us almost daily how much they care for us and are there for us. For that we are thankful. We have a home, clothes and food. And a wonderul little dog, Daisy, to make us laugh and say "aw, how cute is that". And we have hope that someday we will say that about our children. We just have to remember to give control to God on daily basis, probably really hourly or every minute or second if we are truly honest. And wait...

Jer. 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

New Agency

We wanted to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers. It has been a rough couple of weeks. We have decided to change agencies. We are finishing up the paperwork for the new one, Luthern Social Services, by this weekend. We would appreciate your prayers as we make this transition and continue to wait upon the Lord.

Another Twist

We found out some new information today that unfornately cancelled our meeting on Wednesday. Please keep us in your prayers as we continue to walk this journey of adoption.

Good News

We have had an interesting week. On Thursday, I received a voicemail from a pregnancy counselor at Bethany Christian Services. I was staying after school, coaching my DI team, so I immediately called Matt and asked if he could call her. I was very hopeful that we had been matched and waited for Matt to call me back. He finally got ahold of the counselor and talked with her about a birthmother who had picked our profile. She told Matt of some issues that they were concerned about, asking us to still consider the mother and get back to her. Thursday night we talked it over and had further questions for the counselor. We left her a message that night but did not hear back from her.

The next morning I prayed during my devotional time with God, explaining how I was not sure if we were strong enough to take this next step, only to be let down by the birthmother and the issues we were about to face. We had hoped that after walking this journey for so long that the adoption part would be a piece of cake. I prayed that God would show us for sure what we were suppose to do. Then on the way to work, about half way through my drive, I turned on the radio. I turned it on just in time to hear the Pulse Morning Nugget. Corey Mann read the follow scripture, Rev. 3:8 "I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name." I immediately lost it. I turned the channel then, because of commercials and heard the song "Strong Enough" by Matthew West. Wow, I could not believe the way that God had immediately answered my prayer. It was as if those DJ's were there when I prayed it and knew what I needed to hear. It still brings tears to my eyes to know what God did for me that morning.

That same day Matt tried again to get ahold of the counselor, only to find out she was with another family at the hospital waiting on their new arrival. So, she had Matt call and talk with Irene, the director of the agency. Irene answered Matt's questions. And the things we had questions about were cleared up with that phone call, so we agreed to meet with this birthmother, this Wednesday, April 20th.

I know that God has opened this door for us, and all we can do is step through it. This birthmother may not be our birthmother, but He has opened a door. It has given us a renewed hope that He is still in control and we just need to have faith. Please pray with us, as we meet with this birthmother. That we will trust God and know that whatever the outcome, He is still with us walking, between us, leading the way.