Last week was an eventful week in our home. Our little girl got terribly sick and had to be hospitalized. There is no worse feeling in the world then watching your child be that sick and you can do nothing about it. I felt so helpless and useless as a mother. I had to try and comfort a toddler, who did not understand what was happening to her. As Doctors and nurses worked on her, to get an IV in, to take blood, and try to make her better.
And as I have been able to think through the events of last week I thought, how often have I let God feel like a helpless Father. How often have we walked through life, thinking I got this. How often have we walked through life, thinking I know He is there, I will call on Him when I need Him. Life is a journey we are walking through and sometimes I choose to walk through it without my ultimate guide. As He watches and prays over me, as I make choice, after choice, never pausing to consider what is right or noble. Helpless Father.
One thing I was doing last week was that I was consistently in prayer over my daughter because I was scared. But why am I not consistently in prayer with my heavenly Father? I do not want to make Him feel like I did last week. I want to be in a relationship where I am trusting Him, as my FATHER, not just when I am fearful and scared.
When we brought her home from the hospital I stumbled upon this verse, Exodus 14: 13-14,
13 Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” This is not the first time the BE STILL theme has played out in my life. But the part that got me this time was, The LORD will fight for you....let that sink in.
He is fighting for me, all I have to do is include Him and not make Him feel like a helpless Father.
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