Life....

On Friday we received the bill for the first part of the adoption. We have most of it and are praying that God will supply the rest. This journey has so many ups and downs that can sneak up on you. We feel pretty good about the bill, but today's struggles just seem to be with the emotions that can overtake you during this process. Please pray for our struggles with emotions, as we wait for the baby that God has for us. And that our spirits can be reminded that He is good and will see us through.

August Update

Matt and I are still waiting. We have been doing somethings that are still required for us to do. We went to a panel meeting last night in Indy. It made for a very long day, but we are home and survived.

We listened to adopted parents and birthparents tell their story of how they came to adoption. It raised some questions within us of how open we want to be with our birthparents. This is an issue we constantly go back and forth about in our heads. We do know it is a good thing for the child, but I think we struggle with it in our hearts. I think it is the thought of sharing the child is the hurdle we need to overcome. I think this has and will be hard because of how badly we want to be a whole family. This is still a journey we are on. And in a journey you will constantly be stretched and pulled in order to have growth.

So, as you pray for us this August, pray that we will constantly be releasing our fears. We know that God has the perfect child and birthparents for us, but right now we need to have a peace released to us. I think, right now, we are both getting stuck in our heads and letting the negative thoughts creep in. We know this is not what God wants, so pray too, that we can fight the enemy and be positive through this process.

Jeremiah 29. "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord. 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Pray with us, that we will keep that hope and a future in our hearts and minds.