My Prayer "Lord, help me be like a weed..."

I am sure the title of this post makes most of you curious, so let me explain.

This morning while I was running I noticed something...weeds.  In this summer of heat, humidity and no rain the only thing growing are weeds.  And even though they are weeds some produce the most beautiful flowers.  They are the brilliant shades of pink and purple.  Their stems and leaves also hold the color that has been alluding us these days...green.  I ran and wondered about weeds.  Then I prayed a simple prayer, "Lord, help me to be like a weed."

And here is why.  In our eyes, there is nothing that the earth is giving them right now to support life.  It is hot, dry and just plain miserable, but in all our yards alive and well, weeds.  Think how strong and resourceful they must be.  They are getting nutrients when everything else is dying.  I want to be like that.  I want to be walking through this dry and desolate time and still be thriving.

Matt and I feel like we are walking a path that is dry and desolate.  We are sucking up every drop of nutrients we can find for our souls and some days still feel malnourished.  So, "Lord, help me to be like a weed."  In this season of waiting and not knowing what God has for us, my prayer is that we can be strong and resourceful enough to still flourish.  If God can create a weed with all it's strength and resourcefulness, then think how strong and resourceful I must be?!  Wow! 

So today and in the days to come, "Lord, help me to be like a weed."

Still waiting....

So...it is a few months short of a year since I have blogged.  I apologize to those who are wondering what is going on and are unsure of how to approach the topic with us.  We are still waiting.  A perpetual cycle of waiting.  We are waiting for an adoption, we are waiting for our condo to sell.  Our lives seem to be summed up in that one word.  So, as we wait, we are wondering what God truely has in store for us.  We are praying and seeking His guidance as we go into our third year of this adoption process.  We renewed our home study last October and are trying to decide what we will do this October.  We would love to have your prayers as we try to have decernment, in the decision to renew or to.........we don't know. 

This maybe the reason I have not blogged.  I am not sure what to say to you all about this process, the hope we seemed to have at the beginning is changing.  Not that we don't have hope that God has a plan for us.  We know that He does, we are just having trouble finding it, in the midst of our desires.

I am trying to find a way to end this positively, so that it does not seem so "Debbie Downerish".  And if you know me at all, you know that I do try to see the upside to most things.  So, it does drive me a little crazy right now to not be able to see positive in this situation.  So, I guess we need you all to pray that God will show us what He has for us, to have peace with whatever that is and see the good in it.

Thanks for the prayers

I wanted to thank everyone for praying for my dad.  Your prayers for my dad helped tremendously.  I am unsure of when in the last two weeks that this happended, but I do know that within the last two weeks he stopped running from God's love.  And I can safely say that he, today, is resting in our Savior's arms.  He is free from cancer and pain and he is home.

I would ask that you continue to pray for me and my siblings, as we go through an unusally time of morning.  We did not get to know a man that loved and lived a life dedicated to God, but we will.

Isaiah 35:10


"and the ransomed of the Lord will return. They will enter Zion with singing; everlasting joy will crown their heads. Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away."

Prayer Concern

I know this blog is used for updates on our adoption, but I received some news yesterday that I feel requires lots of prayer.  I found out that my biological father's cancer has spread to his brain and he maybe gone before the end of the year.  Now, I am still processing through how I feel about this because I have never had a relationship with him or even known him much as a man.  But I do know that he has spent most, if not all of his adult life, running from God's unconditional love for him and the plans that our heavenly father has had for him.  And that makes me sad.  So, I am asking that you pray with me that he would stop running and that he and his wife would feel that love right now more then they ever have before and to be able to rest in the knowledge that God is with them.

Moving Forward

Last week I spoke to our new Social Worker from Luthern Social Services.  We have set up a meeting with her for August 22nd in the evening.  Just wanted to let you know that the process is once again moving forward.  It will be after this meeting that our profile will once again be shown.  It has been on hold since March, so this feels like a step in the right direction.
Again, Matt and I really appreciate the love, prayers and support we have received from all of you.  We hope and pray that we are on the finally stretch.
Many blessings!

It has been a long time....

I realize that it has been a really long time since Matt and I have posted, but who wants to read "still doing paperwork" for several months on end. But today it has changed, Matt took the paperwork to work to mail today. YEA! One step closer.

It took a little longer because we waited for me to get out of school and Matt to take a day off work. We had to get fingerprinted again and do some background checks again, that required some running around. Hard to do when you have to be at work. But it is done and I can sigh and wait for Suzie to call. (new social worker at new agency)

So, now we wait again.

Sunday, I turned 35 and it was hard. Not because I feel old, although the gray hair and wrinkles are getting more abundant everyday. But because I just thought I would be somewhere completely different in my life right now. I had my moments on Sunday when the tears came all too easliy, but my wonderful husband was there to help me through and I prayed alot. I know that Matt and I are travelling this road for a reason and we might not understand now or ever on this earth why, but it is only for a season and there will be an end, hopefully a very happy one.=)

So, Matt and I are reminding each other of all the good that is in our lives and all the wonderful things we have been blessed with. Like wonderful, wonderful, family and friends who have been a HUGE support. They show us almost daily how much they care for us and are there for us. For that we are thankful. We have a home, clothes and food. And a wonderul little dog, Daisy, to make us laugh and say "aw, how cute is that". And we have hope that someday we will say that about our children. We just have to remember to give control to God on daily basis, probably really hourly or every minute or second if we are truly honest. And wait...

Jer. 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

New Agency

We wanted to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers. It has been a rough couple of weeks. We have decided to change agencies. We are finishing up the paperwork for the new one, Luthern Social Services, by this weekend. We would appreciate your prayers as we make this transition and continue to wait upon the Lord.