Waiting....

Waiting...I am reading a book called Baby, We Were Meant for Each Other by Scott Simon, and it talked about how people want to know what the progress is during your adoption process and well all you can say is you are waiting. I so badly wish I could give a better answer, to be witty enough to think of something clever. But to my dismay, I am not. We are waiting. The good news is, is that Bethany Christian Services is working with 20 birth mothers right now, of which only 9 of them are placed with an adoptive family. So, we could still know something by the end of the year.

I also heard something this weekend that resonated within my soul. I was listening to the radio on the way to the store and heard the quote, "Our plan B is God's way of making us into the people we need to become in Him." That quote was followed by the Micheal W. Smith song Healing Rain. I needed to hear this or maybe, be reminded of this. Matt and I constantly go back to; it would be easy if, this is not what 'we' wanted or why do we have to go through all of this. And you know, after hearing that quote this weekend, I don't need to know why right now. All I need to know is that God is using His plan 'A' our plan B, to make us the individuals He wants us to be. And that is so much better then anything I could ever be on my own.

Matt and I thank you for your prayers. They are what is keeping us going right now. God is still good, even if it takes a little reminding sometimes.

Life....

On Friday we received the bill for the first part of the adoption. We have most of it and are praying that God will supply the rest. This journey has so many ups and downs that can sneak up on you. We feel pretty good about the bill, but today's struggles just seem to be with the emotions that can overtake you during this process. Please pray for our struggles with emotions, as we wait for the baby that God has for us. And that our spirits can be reminded that He is good and will see us through.

August Update

Matt and I are still waiting. We have been doing somethings that are still required for us to do. We went to a panel meeting last night in Indy. It made for a very long day, but we are home and survived.

We listened to adopted parents and birthparents tell their story of how they came to adoption. It raised some questions within us of how open we want to be with our birthparents. This is an issue we constantly go back and forth about in our heads. We do know it is a good thing for the child, but I think we struggle with it in our hearts. I think it is the thought of sharing the child is the hurdle we need to overcome. I think this has and will be hard because of how badly we want to be a whole family. This is still a journey we are on. And in a journey you will constantly be stretched and pulled in order to have growth.

So, as you pray for us this August, pray that we will constantly be releasing our fears. We know that God has the perfect child and birthparents for us, but right now we need to have a peace released to us. I think, right now, we are both getting stuck in our heads and letting the negative thoughts creep in. We know this is not what God wants, so pray too, that we can fight the enemy and be positive through this process.

Jeremiah 29. "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord. 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Pray with us, that we will keep that hope and a future in our hearts and minds.

Prayer Concern

Matt and I will have a couple of substantial bills coming due soon to the agency and a little over half is covered by the proceeds of the boat, but the rest is still a mystery. Please pray that God will provide the money and that we will have the assurance that God will provide. Thank you.

Baby's room

Well, after one coat of primer and two coats of paint the baby's room is done. There are few decoration type things that I am working on but for the most part it is done.

Maybe soon....

We received the July update from Bethany Christian Services and it stated that their are 10 expectant mothers, whose babies need to be placed before the end of the year. This gave us much hope that it could be soon. Please keep these ten mothers and babies in your prayers. Pray that they would be healthy and that they will make the best choice for them and their babies, whatever that may be. Also, pray that if one of these ten is our birth mom, that we will foster a good relationship with her from the start.

God is good....

Matt and I met with a Pastor from our church last night to help him fill out the reference form for the adoption application and when we were talking Matt said God is good. And it is wierd to think about going through the grief of infertility and still we say God is good. "He gives and takes away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name." He is a good God and He has a plan. GOD IS GOOD.