Life....

On Friday we received the bill for the first part of the adoption. We have most of it and are praying that God will supply the rest. This journey has so many ups and downs that can sneak up on you. We feel pretty good about the bill, but today's struggles just seem to be with the emotions that can overtake you during this process. Please pray for our struggles with emotions, as we wait for the baby that God has for us. And that our spirits can be reminded that He is good and will see us through.

August Update

Matt and I are still waiting. We have been doing somethings that are still required for us to do. We went to a panel meeting last night in Indy. It made for a very long day, but we are home and survived.

We listened to adopted parents and birthparents tell their story of how they came to adoption. It raised some questions within us of how open we want to be with our birthparents. This is an issue we constantly go back and forth about in our heads. We do know it is a good thing for the child, but I think we struggle with it in our hearts. I think it is the thought of sharing the child is the hurdle we need to overcome. I think this has and will be hard because of how badly we want to be a whole family. This is still a journey we are on. And in a journey you will constantly be stretched and pulled in order to have growth.

So, as you pray for us this August, pray that we will constantly be releasing our fears. We know that God has the perfect child and birthparents for us, but right now we need to have a peace released to us. I think, right now, we are both getting stuck in our heads and letting the negative thoughts creep in. We know this is not what God wants, so pray too, that we can fight the enemy and be positive through this process.

Jeremiah 29. "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord. 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Pray with us, that we will keep that hope and a future in our hearts and minds.

Prayer Concern

Matt and I will have a couple of substantial bills coming due soon to the agency and a little over half is covered by the proceeds of the boat, but the rest is still a mystery. Please pray that God will provide the money and that we will have the assurance that God will provide. Thank you.

Baby's room

Well, after one coat of primer and two coats of paint the baby's room is done. There are few decoration type things that I am working on but for the most part it is done.

Maybe soon....

We received the July update from Bethany Christian Services and it stated that their are 10 expectant mothers, whose babies need to be placed before the end of the year. This gave us much hope that it could be soon. Please keep these ten mothers and babies in your prayers. Pray that they would be healthy and that they will make the best choice for them and their babies, whatever that may be. Also, pray that if one of these ten is our birth mom, that we will foster a good relationship with her from the start.

God is good....

Matt and I met with a Pastor from our church last night to help him fill out the reference form for the adoption application and when we were talking Matt said God is good. And it is wierd to think about going through the grief of infertility and still we say God is good. "He gives and takes away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name." He is a good God and He has a plan. GOD IS GOOD.

July 2010

Ah...this July weather is wonderful! We have finished our profile and now are waiting. We plan to paint Baby Miller's room this weekend. Our crib and changing table arrived a couple of weeks ago, we have registered at Baby-R-Us and Target, and we are beginning to feel like expectant parents. The journey will continue....

We are keeping a journal for Baby Miller, so they know the story of how they came to our family. Feel free to post anything here for the journal and we will add it.

Nursery pics will be posted when painting is complete.
Thanks again for your prayers and support.